Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in last night and lost 3 pounds!!  Woohoo!!  I was totally shocked.  81.8 pounds gone forever!  I am looking to running my first 5K on Monday morning.  I have an upper respiratory infection right now so I am hoping all of these meds kick in fast!!

Weekly Weigh In and Podcast Interview

I weighed in on Wednesday evening this week and was down 1.2 pounds.  That is a total of 78.8 pounds gone forever! 

On Friday night, I was interviewed for the Half Size Me podcast.  It will air sometime in June.  I was very honored that Heather wanted to interview me.  I was very nervous but it went well!  I'm glad that I accepted the invitation and didn't turn it down due to nervousness.  I am hoping that someone will be touched by my story and be encouraged! 

Binge Eating

I had a realization on Saturday night.  It was one of those moments where I thought to myself, "duh, why haven't you realized this before?!?!"  I realized that I will always deal with the temptation to binge eat.  It is NOT going to go away.  There is no ultimate cure for it.  I do have the opportunity to change how I deal with these temptations.  How I handle these times is what matters most.  Do I allow myself to binge eat or do I "fight through it"? 

I had a sense of peace after realizing this.  Lately, when I have had feelings of wanting to binge eat, it makes me feel like a failure.  It's as though all of my hard work in the past 10 months has been for nothing.  I sure do wish there was a magic cure but I am ready to fight this lifelong battle!!

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in on Thursday evening.  I was down 2.6!!  That makes my total 77.6 pounds gone forever!  I have realized over the past couple of weeks that I am starting to make better "healthy food" choices.  One afternoon last week, I really wanted a granola bar.  I decided to have a greek yogurt with chia seeds added.  I knew it was a better choice!  I felt so proud of myself afterwards as I just plain felt better than I would have with a carby granola bar.  :)

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in last night.  I was up .2.  I did everything and tracked like I was supposed to this past week.  I know that it is just my body's fluctuation and it is perfectly normal.  On an average, I am still losing 1.83 pounds a week.  That is a wonderful average and I have to focus on that!  If I let myself get discouraged with the weeks I have gained, had "small" losses or stayed the same, I would have given up a long time ago.  I know how I feel.  I know that I have to pull my jeans up constantly because they want to fall off.  I know that I can walk and move around so much better.  I know that I am RUNNING!!  (I never thought I would be able to say that)!  This is a lifelong journey for me.  I am trying to enjoy each stage and size that I am at.  I look forward to achieving each goal that I have set for myself!

Hungry!

I have been so hungry this week!  It seems like no matter what I eat, I'm still hungry.  I have tried to be healthy.  I have combined carbs and protein, eaten fruits and veggies, etc. but I'm STILL hungry!  I am excited that I haven't allowed myself to binge.  Normally, when I go through this, I end up eating everything in sight but I have not done that. 

So, just now, I ate probably 12 points worth of cereal.  Yes, cereal!!  It was what sounded good.  I don't eat cereal very often so when I crave it, I try to allow myself a splurge.  (I usually don't splurge to the tune of 12 points).  Today, I decided that I would rather eat "too much" cereal than something else that I really don't want.  I know how the cycle goes.  I eat something that I really don't want but that may be a healthier choice.  I'm still not satisfied.  I try again....eat something that I really don't want but that may be a healthier choice, etc.  About 3 hours later, I end up binging on cereal (which is what I really wanted in the first place).  Now, instead of having to only count the 12 points for the cereal, I have to count the numerous points for the food that I was trying to satisfy the craving with.  I'm learning!  It's not always easy, but I'm learning!